Buffet…
Okay, so it’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything because I basically have no life right now. I’ll try to explain…
Have you ever stood in line at a buffet looking at all the yummy food and can’t decide what you want because it all looks so good, so you take a little of all of it??? Well basically that’s what my life is like right now. I have taken on some things that all are really good and important things… taking a class, more responsibility at church, helping my mom sell her house, two bible studies, teaching and trying to be a good mom and wife to my family and it feels like I’ve overfilled my dish. I want to do and be involved in everything I have committed to and for some that may not be too much, but for me the plate is too full.
All this “stuff” has made me sooooo tired. I’m tired of feeling upset, frustrated, inadequate, stressed, anxious and just tired of being TIRED!! I know God does not give us more than we can handle, but to be honest sometimes I feel like I’ve had enough! It’s like I’m being pulled in all these different directions and I’m finding it hard to divide my time up so that each “thing” that needs to be done gets done. I’m working hard to be good at everything I’ve taken on, but sometimes things don’t get done, or something slips and I hate that. I hate feeling like I’m not doing my best. But, everything that’s on my plate I feel very responsible for and cannot “dump it.”
So, for now I’ll sit here eating away little by little until it’s all gone. I know there is an end in sight to the craziness and am counting the days until June…when I will say goodbye to those pesky, yet adorable little 6 year olds that hopefully I’ve had some kind of positive influence on. And all the reflections upon reflections upon lesson plans upon reflections will be all tied up in a pretty little package and given to the course instructor who will probably not spend more than 1/100th of the time I took preparing it…and my mom’s house will hopefully soon have a sold sign on a painted wooden pole in her front lawn…and my two enlightening, yet time consuming bible studies will soon come to a close as the summer months approach…
So at times it has seemed that “I have bitten off more than I can chew”, or “there’s too much on my plate”, or “I’ve got too much junk in my trunk” (oh, wait that’s something else) anyway, you get the picture. Maybe God is expanding what I am capable of handling. That seems just like something he would do.
Well so long for now. Thanks for reading 
Sorry for the rambling…
Long lost friend…
I was looking through some stuff in my closet and came across my guitar that I haven’t touched in over 10 years. So… I got it out and started trying to play it. It was missing a string, so that made it kind of difficult. After an hour of playing on an untuned guitar with a missing string I decided it might be worth it to take it in and get the string replaced and have it tuned.
I was a little embarassed taking it in because I had neglected it for so long and couldn’t remember how to restring and tune it. As I entered the store, the girl at the desk was trying to tell me to check in my guitar. I didn’t think she was talking to me, so some other guys came over and started saying Mam! Mam! You need to check in your guitar. I was totally clueless! I hadn’t stepped foot in a guitar store in quite a while. I guess things have changed. The guitar guy was sooo nice. He told me what a nice guitar I had and strung up a new string and tuned it for me all for free!! He played it a little and reminded me how to keep it tuned. I was so excited to take it home and start playing. It was like a long lost friend that I had wanted to stay in touch with but never took the time… So, all last night I practiced, and a little this morning. My fingers are sooooo sore!
It seems strange that I hadn’t paid any attention to my guitar in so long. I first started playing right before I met Scott. ( I even found a few songs I wrote about him back when we were first dating!) I guess I started getting caught up with our relationship and spending time with Scott that I eventually stopped playing. Then college, work and Jada came along and I sort of forgot that I even played.
Oh well, she’s back in town and the memories and feelings have all come rushing back (although the actual playing will take some practice). HA HA HA! I love my guitar!
